Friday, October 16, 2009
AFFIRMATION
*LOOKING IN THE MIRROR*
I WILL...
I CAN...
I WILL GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE
I WILL
I WILL TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY
I WILL
I WILL BE THE MAN THAT I KNOW I CAN BE
I WILL
I CAN GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE
I CAN
I CAN TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY
I CAN
I CAN BE THE MAN THAT I KNOW I CAN BE
I CAN AND I WILL.... AND NOTHING IS GONNA STOP ME
Saturday, August 1, 2009
New month... July didn't go to well
Its been a minute since I updated my blogspot but there's a reasonable explanation for that. Ok...lets see.... where do I start.... ok....I'm having a tough time getting my financial aid straight (you would think after 5 years I'd have it down pact) , my aunt Pat dies, the homies PK & George pass away the next day AFTER my aunt, fear of getting old is creeping up on me (I'm 24 and feel like I'm doing jack shit with my life), I've become Isolated but outgoing, quite but loud, shy but outrageously social, its like I'm a human oxymoron in a way. Odd thoughts have run amuck in my mind like dog doing back flips in a cyclone in Alabama. OH and pardon my writing skills.... usually my wizardry of words come to life when I write but I'm kinda not in the mood. Sorry......to whomever reads this....BUT I will get back to blogging.... OH and I'm trying to get my own "dot com" website...I feel like everyone has a blogspot so I have to change it up a bit. Until then.....the spot is where it is.OH M
Y GOD....I just read what I wrote and its written horribly!!! I'm not fixing it...
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Sneaker Pimps NYC was LIVE last night... here are some pics from the event feat... Wale, Big Boi From Outkast, Jadakiss, The Clipse and The Cool Kids
Thursday, June 25, 2009
R.I.P. Michael Jackson
Sad ...."Thriller" & "Remember the Time" were my favorite joints. Its sad we'll NEVER see him moonwalk again. I'm still waiting for the media to say that they were just playing. Mike's passing fucked my shit up today. May his soul rest in peace.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Are you a Homophobe?
Well.....are you? (Whoever is reading this). You know what I hear all the time and it bugs me??? "Yo son...That's gay" or "This is gay" or "this place is gay". Why do we refer to something being bad as being gay? In my opinion these are typically fear-based reactions, but the fear is usually that of the social stigma of being labelled homosexual. Are heterosexuals scared of homosexuals because they think they'll catch something? I HIGHLY DOUBT IT...but I do wonder what goes on in ones head that thinks this way. For real for real, you might as well say that Homophobia is like RACISM or ANTI-SEMITISM and it dehumanizes a large group of people, to deny their humanity, their dignity and personhood. In this day and age (the No Homo generation as like to call it) it seems like people are trying to put up a tough exterior and show off there masculinity instead of being who they are. I know MOST people aren't this homophobic!!! Are they? I blame some rap music. The machismo in certain rap music is so high that it easily influences people to not be themselves and fight anything that is different. Unfortunately being gay is at the butt of most songs jokes and it carries over into day to day life and regular conversations. Like some people, and myself, have been accused of acting a certain way or liking something different than the usual standards of living. But who is to say what I like is gay? Or what I'm doing is gay? I can see if I was actually doing a homosexual activity but if I'm just doing something that someone else doesn't believe in why is it considered gay? People should try seeing someone else's point of view on something before judging them and calling them something there not.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Conformity Is A Foul Way To Live
Why do people conform to other ways of life? Shit hit me like a ton of bricks a moment ago. Why do some people dumb themselves down to fit in? Is it to be cool or are they scared of being a social outcast? Personally, I don't know. Recently I found myself getting sucked into a situation where I wasn't being myself by a friend. Once in a blue moon this happens so I usually have to snap out of it and give sterl a hard evaluation. Are the people who submit to conformity so easily influenced by the social pressures of society where we can't think straight and give up our own individuality??? I've learned tonight that I'm tired of toning myself down or trying to be cool for friends and others. Its all about what I want to do and how I feel at certain moments. If I feel like being silly and acting like a cornball or acting conry or listening to a certain kind of music or dressing a certain way, that's on me and I'm comfortable being this way. Who are they to judge? Sometimes others make you feel that bad, thats what makes you try to be more compliant to there standards. Shit is tough. I'm trying to snap out of this mentality and so should others. We're born into this world individuals, don't die a copy.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Matt & Kim- Lessons Learned. Dope Vid... AND PLEASE WATCH THE ENTIRE THING. THERES A SURPRISE AT THE END...LOL
i don't really mess with game electronics anymore, but when I saw this I thought it was kinda dope! Will I be purchasing this?? NO
Saturday, June 6, 2009
The BEST CD I'VE HEARD SO FAR THIS YEAR IS....
..... PASSION PIT- MANNERS. I advise everyone who reads this and likes "other" music besides rap to listen to this cd. I swear I've played "Manners" over and over again all weekend.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
QUOTES THAT GIVE ME THE CHILLS:
Life isn't about making it through the thunderstorms, its about dancing in the rain- AnonymousThe ONLY time success comes before work is in the dictionary- Puff DaddyObstacles are the things we see when we take our eyes off our goals-Zig ZiglarWhen life gives you lemons, say fuck the lemons and bail- Koonoo/ChuckA man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams-John BarrymoreIf you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put the foundations under them- Henry David Thoreau I just thought of something funny...your mother- Cheech Marin These are pretty good quotes that I like to go by. SHIT IS DEEP SON...WORD!!!
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
My brother showed me the Infamous Grape Lady video! I SWEAR THIS IS THE FUNNIEST THING I'VE SEEN ALL YEAR!!!!!
JOURNAL STANDARD COMBAT JACKET... I Know where to find these sooo... this will be added to my wardrobe this winter!!
The more i look at these Jordan 60+ 7s... The more they look better. Still dont know if i'll cop though
Timberland Costa Dorada Boat Shoe... I CANT do sandals in the summer. Give me a pair of these and I'm straight
Fashion Time!!! BURBERRY PROSRSUM:....I SWEAR BURBERRY IS OUT OF THERE MIND FOR THESE OUTFITS!!! SPORTING ROC-A-WEAR WAS ALONG PEOPLE... LOL
OK OK OK... THIS IS MY 60th POST... THERE WAS ALOT OF THINGS I WANTED TO SHOW OFF WHILE I WAS BUSY... SO...
HERE!!!!!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
No post in a while because....
.... I really don't know. Lol. Pretty much just preparing for summer events. A lot of things are about to happen soon so I have to get ready. Vacation Trips, Weddings, Sneaker Releases, Concerts, Workout Sessions Etc... . Plus, I'm trying to switch this blogspot up a little bit. I've noticed some jacking on another blogspot page so its about time for a change. Anyway... give me a week or so and I'll be back on my spit!
Saturday, May 2, 2009
This brought back old memories
Adele - First Love So little to say but so much time, Despite my empty mouth the words are in my mind. Please wear the face, the one where you smile, Because you lighten up my heart when I start to cry. Forgive me first love, but I'm tired. I need to get away to feel again. Try to understand why, don't get so close to change my mind. Please wipe that look out of your eyes, it's bribing me to doubt myself; Simply, it's tiring. This love has dried up and stayed behind, And if I stay I'll be alive, Then choke on words I'd always hide. Excuse me first love, but we're through. I need to taste the kiss from someone knew. Forgive me first love, but I'm too tired. I'm bored to say the least and I, I lack desire. Forgive me first love, Forgive me first love, Forgive me first love, Forgive me first love, Forgive me, Forgive me first love, Forgive me first love
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
My Secret Drug Addiction
It started 3 years agoOctober 19, 2006I never had a problemUntilI was sucked into its atmosphereThe Gravitational Pull slowly lured me inThe late nightsAddiction sneaks up on youThe early morningsAddiction is the 1st thing on my mindI was a fiendAddiction took over meI'm still a fiendAddiction has me helplessI CAN SMELL ITI CAN TASTE ITI CAN FEEL IT AGAINST MY SKINIf I close my eyes I can see it coming towards measking me if I love itI GO THROUGH WITHDRAWSADDICTION IS SERIOUS.................(gasp)(becomes enraged)..............SHE IS SERIOUS SHE SMOKES HER COOL IN MY EMOTIONSLEAVES HER ASHES ON MY LIPSCOLD SWEATS OF NICOTINE AFFECTION IS LEFT ON MY SHEETSI'm weakSHE'S POWERFUL She my drugShe's alisha
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Jesus Walks
Today while I was doing my usual run in the park a song came on my iPod that I hadn't heard in a while. It was Jesus Walks by Kanye and I started thinking........ since I've been working out Jesus has been walking with me EVERYDAY that I'm out there. The devil tries to break me down and make eat more food and/or give up on working out. But its NOT fazing me!!! The weather, my knee, my shoes, keeps becoming a problem but it doesn't stop me. I'm feeling like Antwone Fisher when he went to visit his adoptive mother. "YOU CAN'T BREAK ME, I'M STILL STANDING, I'M STILL STRONG!!!". So I feel like God is showing me the way and the Devil is trying to break me down and the only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now. Jesus is walking with me
Monday, April 20, 2009
Cousin Janice from Queens
Welp... Cousin Janice from Queens is staying at the crib for another week. Grandma can't seem to say no to her when she asks to stay at the house. I understand that she has a job here in jersey and the commute from Queens to Jersey everyday would be crazy. But damn... get a hotel or something sometimes! I can't even do my usual routine of things because shes a female and I have to censor myself around her. For example, what if I wanna walk around the house with no shirt on and let my fresh patch of chest pubes breath? I CAN'T!!! Because she's a chick and I have to act like a gentleman around women (according to my grandma). Now my chest fro is gonna get nappy cause it won't breath and I'll have to re-pick it again. Another example, what if I ate excellent meal fit for a king and afterwards I have to drop off a few food babies at the playpen and the smell is horrendous??? She'll smell it and freak out! I can't have that. The smell will literally melt your off! I've done it. Well... the point I'm trying to get at is that I don't want Cousin Janice from Queens to stay in my castle anymore! This is BS!!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I'm not gonna fight the feeling anymore....
..... and I've been thinking about taking ACTING classes. YES, ACTING CLASSES PEOPLE. I swear I'm sooo fickle when it comes to making life decisions its not even funny. As far as teaching is concerned I'm gonna continue to pursue that but I'm just gonna pick up an extra class at school and see where it takes me. The past few times I've spoken to my mother she keeps insinuating that I should take up acting. Lately I've been thinking I can actually do it. Idk... maybe that's just my moms gasin me up but I think she's right. I belive I'm very animated and versatile to be an actor. I'm gonna keep it 100 right quick.... how many DOPE black male actors are out these days? NONE really!!! I'm talking someone like Denzel in his prime!!! Nobody!! I want that spot dammit!!! Who do we have seriously???? Ludacris??? Tyler Perry??? Terrance Howard??? NOPE!!! Now if I ever made it... I dont want to do those SAME Black, I need a man, sista girl movies that star Gabrielle Union and Morris Chestnut and end up playing on BET 100 times a month...Come on...we need better actors and who better than to raise the bar up some more then ME!!! ... but anyway... I'm gonna take an acting class next semester and see what happens. Wish me luck
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Epiphany 2 Epiphany
1st off last night I went to see Chrisette Michele and the show was dope! She mainly performed new songs off her new cd called, Epiphany. While I was at the show I noticed the audience members around me and they seemed so ..... positive, motivated, and outgoing. Then I had an epiphany... I want what these people have! I feel that I'm not living up to my potential. There are so many levels to sterling that have yet to be explored and I need to put myself in position where I can BE one of those positive, motivated, and outgoing people. For some reason the only motivation I have going for myself is working out my body. So far I've been doing a good job at it but now I see that I have to learn how to multi-task. The positiveness in my life is only coming from a section in my mind that's telling me that things are gonna be ok. Will it? I'd like to belive so. Do I doubt it? Yes and NoWill I overcome this doubt? Maybe so.Sorry.... I had a Moe Moment ....(shout out to the homie)As f!
ar as bei
ng outgoing thats me and has always been me... but I think its time to step it up a notch though. So I ask who knows me.... if I hesitate at anything (that's positive)... push me ...please. All of this came from seeing one of my favorite artist.Odd shit but good shit huh?
