It started 3 years agoOctober 19, 2006I never had a problemUntilI was sucked into its atmosphereThe Gravitational Pull slowly lured me inThe late nightsAddiction sneaks up on youThe early morningsAddiction is the 1st thing on my mindI was a fiendAddiction took over meI'm still a fiendAddiction has me helplessI CAN SMELL ITI CAN TASTE ITI CAN FEEL IT AGAINST MY SKINIf I close my eyes I can see it coming towards measking me if I love itI GO THROUGH WITHDRAWSADDICTION IS SERIOUS.................(gasp)(becomes enraged)..............SHE IS SERIOUS SHE SMOKES HER COOL IN MY EMOTIONSLEAVES HER ASHES ON MY LIPSCOLD SWEATS OF NICOTINE AFFECTION IS LEFT ON MY SHEETSI'm weakSHE'S POWERFUL She my drugShe's alisha
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Jesus Walks
Today while I was doing my usual run in the park a song came on my iPod that I hadn't heard in a while. It was Jesus Walks by Kanye and I started thinking........ since I've been working out Jesus has been walking with me EVERYDAY that I'm out there. The devil tries to break me down and make eat more food and/or give up on working out. But its NOT fazing me!!! The weather, my knee, my shoes, keeps becoming a problem but it doesn't stop me. I'm feeling like Antwone Fisher when he went to visit his adoptive mother. "YOU CAN'T BREAK ME, I'M STILL STANDING, I'M STILL STRONG!!!". So I feel like God is showing me the way and the Devil is trying to break me down and the only thing that I pray is that my feet don't fail me now. Jesus is walking with me
Monday, April 20, 2009
Cousin Janice from Queens
Welp... Cousin Janice from Queens is staying at the crib for another week. Grandma can't seem to say no to her when she asks to stay at the house. I understand that she has a job here in jersey and the commute from Queens to Jersey everyday would be crazy. But damn... get a hotel or something sometimes! I can't even do my usual routine of things because shes a female and I have to censor myself around her. For example, what if I wanna walk around the house with no shirt on and let my fresh patch of chest pubes breath? I CAN'T!!! Because she's a chick and I have to act like a gentleman around women (according to my grandma). Now my chest fro is gonna get nappy cause it won't breath and I'll have to re-pick it again. Another example, what if I ate excellent meal fit for a king and afterwards I have to drop off a few food babies at the playpen and the smell is horrendous??? She'll smell it and freak out! I can't have that. The smell will literally melt your off! I've done it. Well... the point I'm trying to get at is that I don't want Cousin Janice from Queens to stay in my castle anymore! This is BS!!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
I'm not gonna fight the feeling anymore....
..... and I've been thinking about taking ACTING classes. YES, ACTING CLASSES PEOPLE. I swear I'm sooo fickle when it comes to making life decisions its not even funny. As far as teaching is concerned I'm gonna continue to pursue that but I'm just gonna pick up an extra class at school and see where it takes me. The past few times I've spoken to my mother she keeps insinuating that I should take up acting. Lately I've been thinking I can actually do it. Idk... maybe that's just my moms gasin me up but I think she's right. I belive I'm very animated and versatile to be an actor. I'm gonna keep it 100 right quick.... how many DOPE black male actors are out these days? NONE really!!! I'm talking someone like Denzel in his prime!!! Nobody!! I want that spot dammit!!! Who do we have seriously???? Ludacris??? Tyler Perry??? Terrance Howard??? NOPE!!! Now if I ever made it... I dont want to do those SAME Black, I need a man, sista girl movies that star Gabrielle Union and Morris Chestnut and end up playing on BET 100 times a month...Come on...we need better actors and who better than to raise the bar up some more then ME!!! ... but anyway... I'm gonna take an acting class next semester and see what happens. Wish me luck
Friday, April 17, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Epiphany 2 Epiphany
1st off last night I went to see Chrisette Michele and the show was dope! She mainly performed new songs off her new cd called, Epiphany. While I was at the show I noticed the audience members around me and they seemed so ..... positive, motivated, and outgoing. Then I had an epiphany... I want what these people have! I feel that I'm not living up to my potential. There are so many levels to sterling that have yet to be explored and I need to put myself in position where I can BE one of those positive, motivated, and outgoing people. For some reason the only motivation I have going for myself is working out my body. So far I've been doing a good job at it but now I see that I have to learn how to multi-task. The positiveness in my life is only coming from a section in my mind that's telling me that things are gonna be ok. Will it? I'd like to belive so. Do I doubt it? Yes and NoWill I overcome this doubt? Maybe so.Sorry.... I had a Moe Moment ....(shout out to the homie)As f!
ar as bei
ng outgoing thats me and has always been me... but I think its time to step it up a notch though. So I ask who knows me.... if I hesitate at anything (that's positive)... push me ...please. All of this came from seeing one of my favorite artist.Odd shit but good shit huh?
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
My Baby Mama Keyshia Cole's King Magazine Cover. Its sad that KING MAGAZINE shut down!!! I'll definitely miss it
Monday, April 6, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
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